Random update

yeah so as some may know i got Gmail as well as my telus and some know about my hotmail but the thing is i do still use my telus so still sending everything through my JerushaEsmi@telus.net email plz so how are you all doing i am not doing to good but yeah if anyone has time to go for coffee you know how to get me some have me on msn some have me on there blog and some have me on facebook and some have me and all of these things but the point is i need to talk to some one and get adives from some one on what to do about my peroblums witch most know about from my past blogs and so on and know i am haveing trubels with other things but i will figer it out so yeah let me know what you been up to Jerusha

Random update

Hey I just thought I wouled randomly update my blog let you know all how I am will as far as that goes awful tired and stupid also was sick on wed the 14th of 2007 do to not geting alot of sleep and will it is becuase I am worried to much about a frined that I really care about and so on and lately he has or what I seem that he has been doing is avoieding me for some reson don't know what but I wish I know why? do any of you think I shouled keep beside him? If so why do you think I shoued? what do I say to him when he ask me I am still sticking beside him after all he has done to me? and all so I have not been eating as much as I use t0 but that is partly becuase of grad and my dress is thin so I got to have a thin tummy and so on and yeah what you all doing for spering brack? How are you all doing with school and work and if your a mum how are the kids? ummm I do not know what else to say then that but it is late and I got to get up and all becuase I am going to a move in victoria for 9:00am on sat the 17th of 2007 so hope you all have a good spering brack looking forwed to hearing from all you sorry for the lil brack between the last blog you know how it is right? so yeah have fun!!!!!!! looking forwed to monday I may be going to vancover for the day for shoping

hurting and feeling like there is no way to help my friends

hey there all sorry for the long time paried on no bloging i have not been doing well i am trying to help two friends with things but i am not doing very good and i am hurting and all and don't know what i can do to help my friends becuase i know one for sure do not let me help and seeing them hurt makes me hurt and i wouled do anything for this frined to help them and i mean anything and will the other friend they at lest let me try and help and do what i can and they don't do anything to me when i try and help and i am just really feeling worthless and crapy and not knowing what to do for my two frineds if you got any ideas plz tell me i geuss that all i got to say for now bye all

what is life

what the bloody hell is life why shouled i bother liveing why is life a big thing every one says i will fine the right guy but i dont bloody well beleave that and will i cant evern think right now days i dont think i am going to make it to grad with how i am doing and all and will i have some good freinds trying to help me get through it but something are not working out and i dont know i am starting to wunder away from God and all and i just dont know what to do and i have been feeling deperssed and all so that couled be part of my reson but as i said i am giveing in to saten and all and i dont think i will ever fine the right guy for me i thought i had but i did not so on and so forth the point is i am geting to the point were i am fineding life point less what are all your thoughts and dont be easy no matter how much the truth may hurt me i will take it and will i must be going now ttyl bloggers bye bye Jerusha

LOVE

I think I may know what love is becuase I can kind of see it arouned some Frineds will one is more the a friend and the other is my best friend even thought I dont know if she feels the same way the guy dose but I am kind of haveing to get use to seeing them so close togther and stuff and will I am kind of haveing a hard time geting use to seeing them so close and alway togther and I feel like the only thing I can do is get pissed off at the person and will I am not sure if I want to died alon or with a guy becuase the peroblum is i dont ever think I will know what true love is in tell perobly after I died and I am sick of trying to figer out with love is so if you can HELP ME plz do help and yeah if you have ever been in love tell me what it is like becuase i dont ever think i will ever truly feel love will that about it so yeah tell the next updat on the thoughts of Jerusha

evil Jerusha that dont want to be chirsten that like caseing her self pain is back

hey all sorry but my butten has been pushed and will as you can see by my heading the evil side or shouled i say twin is back and she is not looking or feeling good or anything and right now i feel like going back on a peromis i made with some people that i am not nameing but most no who and will and will things are not looking pratty for me i want to leave youth ice aleat my self and not be arouned other christen and i mean that all that i want is to stay home and case my self pain and more pain and so yeah that is it i am not want to do very much to get the old happy angel jerusha back that was her she is locked up far far away were no one can get her Evil Twin Jerusha

what are your Christmas traditions

so yea this is my new post and i was wundering what you all do at this time of year so post them traditions and as for mine open stockings then wait tell the qween do her spech then open under the tree gifts that mine