evil Jerusha that dont want to be chirsten that like caseing her self pain is back
hey all sorry but my butten has been pushed and will as you can see by my heading the evil side or shouled i say twin is back and she is not looking or feeling good or anything and right now i feel like going back on a peromis i made with some people that i am not nameing but most no who and will and will things are not looking pratty for me i want to leave youth ice aleat my self and not be arouned other christen and i mean that all that i want is to stay home and case my self pain and more pain and so yeah that is it i am not want to do very much to get the old happy angel jerusha back that was her she is locked up far far away were no one can get her Evil Twin Jerusha
posted by Jerusha at 9:55 PM
8 Comments:
What did I tell you about self esteem mate? Okay, so you need some more. Saying you belong in the crap shoot doesn't help that. And you aren't evil. Your old self is dead. It comes back sometimes, but it has no right to do that. You don't have to be a living zombie. That old is dead. If you get anything I say get that. You aren't evil because that is dead.
Everybody has their down days mate. How you deal with them is whats important. I would suggest you deal with them differently. I'm not a fan of this self bashing.
I do be agreeing with Werner, albeit rather lately...but nonetheless, I agree with him. You're not evil, yeah, so maybe you do some dumb things sometimes, but so do we all, I know I've done my share. Self-bashing is bad, as I've found out from long experience. Once you've killed something, it's gotta stay dead, and your old self is included. It's dead, so stop letting it keep hurting you!
That said, just keep moving, and don't be afraid to ask for help, it'll always be given.
Personally, I wouldn't be so quick to ignore this other aspect of yourself. You're obviously struggling with your spirituality, questioning some of the decisions you have made. This is normal for most people your age. I know that I've been contemplating my spirituality for quite a while now.
You must however STOP hurting yourself! That means emotionally and/or physically. You must remain calm and think about this rationally.
I do not believe that anyone is inherently evil, and knowing you I'm sure that you are not.
-JarJar_Head
Jerusha...when negative thoughts come to mind you need to replace them with positive thoughts.. especially scripture! For example when you feel like you are not worthy remember that you SO are... Jeremiah 139:13 and 29:11 - Read them and meditate on them k? Remember that you are loved! Nelia
Hey Jerusha,
I agree with Wrener and Ted all the way on the subject. I have to say that I am also not a fan of the Evil Twin Jerusha. I don't think I've met anyone yet, who has said that about. I know you get angry at times, but please try not to beat yourself up for it, even if you do screw up. I know how it feels to have screwn up something, and have someone be angry with you. Been There, Done That. I have beat myself up inside for so many dumb things that I've done over the years, that it's not even funny.
thelazyninja and aftverner are right, Self_bashing is really bad for you.
Lindsay
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Hey, You asked me to comment so here I am! Heavy issue though...
You know, I don't think any of us are perfect angels And i don't think its good to pretend to be. Your friends and God love you the way that you are! God loves you No more or no less if you feel like an angel or "evil" as you say.
However, Romans 8:1 says that "there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus". This means that if you feel guilty or like a bad person, you don't need to. God doesn't want you to. He loves you and has made you OK.
Hang in there. There are good times ahead.
Great work.
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