what is life

what the bloody hell is life why shouled i bother liveing why is life a big thing every one says i will fine the right guy but i dont bloody well beleave that and will i cant evern think right now days i dont think i am going to make it to grad with how i am doing and all and will i have some good freinds trying to help me get through it but something are not working out and i dont know i am starting to wunder away from God and all and i just dont know what to do and i have been feeling deperssed and all so that couled be part of my reson but as i said i am giveing in to saten and all and i dont think i will ever fine the right guy for me i thought i had but i did not so on and so forth the point is i am geting to the point were i am fineding life point less what are all your thoughts and dont be easy no matter how much the truth may hurt me i will take it and will i must be going now ttyl bloggers bye bye Jerusha

LOVE

I think I may know what love is becuase I can kind of see it arouned some Frineds will one is more the a friend and the other is my best friend even thought I dont know if she feels the same way the guy dose but I am kind of haveing to get use to seeing them so close togther and stuff and will I am kind of haveing a hard time geting use to seeing them so close and alway togther and I feel like the only thing I can do is get pissed off at the person and will I am not sure if I want to died alon or with a guy becuase the peroblum is i dont ever think I will know what true love is in tell perobly after I died and I am sick of trying to figer out with love is so if you can HELP ME plz do help and yeah if you have ever been in love tell me what it is like becuase i dont ever think i will ever truly feel love will that about it so yeah tell the next updat on the thoughts of Jerusha

evil Jerusha that dont want to be chirsten that like caseing her self pain is back

hey all sorry but my butten has been pushed and will as you can see by my heading the evil side or shouled i say twin is back and she is not looking or feeling good or anything and right now i feel like going back on a peromis i made with some people that i am not nameing but most no who and will and will things are not looking pratty for me i want to leave youth ice aleat my self and not be arouned other christen and i mean that all that i want is to stay home and case my self pain and more pain and so yeah that is it i am not want to do very much to get the old happy angel jerusha back that was her she is locked up far far away were no one can get her Evil Twin Jerusha